When I was at Ragnar relay, the time away from my apartment was the first in months since I went home for Christmas. When I returned from NY, the past few months were spent on running. Therefore, the time spent in the car and running in southern cal allowed me to think – a lot – about all different things. I alluded to the fact that running is not the solution to all issues and there were a couple difficult conversations that I had to have with myself. These things are nothing to worry about, folks 🙂 just things like career, friends, life..etc. This past week “off” from training allowed me to re-focus my energy on things I have not been very good at balancing or paying very much attention. In doing so, I had a couple really great conversations with a few of my closest friends in the Bay area. The result of these conversations helped clear the mind and gain support for what I need to do.
Difficult Convo #1: As some may know, Teach for America is a two year program, which means my time commitment is technically “over” after this school year, but one of the conversations that I had with myself is “why have I decided to stay with teaching??” In the fall, I will be returning to the classroom and as much as I am SO excited to see what is in the future, I am scared. I think what scares me the most is not really having a time-line ahead of me. Things seem pretty indefinite, while in the past there has been a date and time where things sort of wrap up – 4 years for hs, 4 for college, 2 for my teaching program…etc. Also, what scares me is that I may not be returning back to school for the medical field and that has been an identify I’ve stuck with since sophomore year of HS. Rather, is Bay area where I am meant to be? Time will tell, even if it does scare the crap out of me.
Difficult Convo #2: As a teacher, it has been difficult to meet, well, others who aren’t teachers. Although my teacher friends are absolutely wonderful, it wouldn’t be such a bad idea to get a change of scenery. Right? In an attempt to branch out, I signed up for a couple volunteer opportunities that I will talk about after I do them this week. We will see if there are some people my age. 🙂 BUT, the blog has been a FANTASTIC way of meeting people and speaking of, I have a blog meet-up tonight that I will tell you about later. I guess I grouped this under a difficult conversation because it involves letting go of a rather stress-filled friendship. So, that was a source of mental struggle as I dealt with that. Thank you to my friends who have listened to me and given advice.
If you moved to a new area, how would you meet new people?
ANYWAYS, let me tell you about my RUNS this weekend!
Saturday – 10 miles at Sawyer Camp. I didn’t bring my watch because this was the first long run since the relay. I didn’t want to push it in case there was a lingering injury that hadn’t presented itself. Well, all’s clear! It felt GREAT even if I did take it a bit slower. No iPod, no watch. Damn, I could get used to that. To be honest, I think my training plan called for 20 sec/mile more than half marathon pace…so I am estimating that is where it’s at. So like a 10:20ishhh.
Sunday – 4 miles of HILLS. I hit these hills HARD and was definitely wiped out at the end. I want to incorporate some hill work into this training plan. This was supposed to be a “recovery run” but when I realized where our group was meeting, I thought it a perfect time to test the waters in a hill workout. I had avoided hill workouts with my IT band for months, but I am feeling good.
Speaking of training plans, I registered for America’s Finest Half Marathon in San Diego, CA on Aug 15th. Yes, I know…sounds HOT, but as listed as one of the top half marathons in the country, I knew it worked perfectly into a 15 week training plan that I am SO excited to begin. This will be my focus for the next few months. Plus, another road trip to southern Cal?..couldn’t pass THAT up!
I will leave you with a couple pictures of how I spent my Saturday. I used this weekend as a retreat. Running fit perfectly into that plan, but so did going to the LAKE! I brought a book and was there for a bit of relaxing.
Thanks for reading through my difficult convos piece 🙂